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The Sorrows of Satan
The Sorrows of Satan

Chapter XV

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* * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.
If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.
I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.
The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.
I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.
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LEARNER DICTIONARY
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A keeper or guardian of historical records and memories.

The Sorrows of Satan

Chapter XV

Reading 1/71 · 5 reading units · Lines 1–5

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* * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.
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If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.
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I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.
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The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.
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I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

Learner Dictionary

Oxford-style entry order: headword, part of speech, US IPA, concise definition, contextual example, audio, and collocations from this reading.

About preposition US /əˈbaʊt/

on the subject of; concerning

From this reading “If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.”

After preposition US /ˈæftər/

later than; following

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Born noun US /born/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Disposition noun US /ˌdɪspəˈzɪʃən/

the way something is arranged or positioned

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

First noun US /first/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Found noun US /found/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Have auxiliary verb US /hæv/

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Last noun US /last/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “* * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.”

Least noun US /least/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.”

Make noun US /make/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Morning noun US /morning/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.”

Must modal verb US /mʌst/

used to say something is necessary, or almost certainly true

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

Myself pronoun US /ˌmaɪˈself/

used when the speaker is also the object of the action

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

One pronoun US /wʌn/

used to mean any person in general, including the speaker

From this reading “I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.”

Passed noun US /passed/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.”

Told noun US /told/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.”

Whether conjunction US /ˈweðər/

used to introduce two or more possibilities

From this reading “I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.”

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aboutprepositionUS /əˈbaʊt/

on the subject of; concerning

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

affairs

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

afterprepositionUS /ˈæftər/

later than; following

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

all

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

amauxiliary verbUS /æm/

the form of “be” used with “I”

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

andeterminerUS /æn/

the form of “a” used before a word that begins with a vowel sound

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

analysis

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

andconjunctionUS /ənd/

used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

any

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

areauxiliary verbUS /ɑːr/

the form of “be” used with you, we, they, or a plural noun

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

atprepositionUS /æt/

in or near a particular place or position

From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

beauxiliary verbUS /biː/

used with a past participle to form the passive, or with -ing for continuous tenses

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

birthday

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

bornnounUS /born/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

called

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

canmodal verbUS /kæn/

to be able to, or to be allowed to

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

carry

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From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

character

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

circumstances

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

didauxiliary verbUS /dɪd/

the past form of “do”, used in questions and negatives

From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

die

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From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

dispositionnounUS /ˌdɪspəˈzɪʃən/

the way something is arranged or positioned

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

education

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

evil

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

excuses

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

father

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

felt

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From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

find

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

firstnounUS /first/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

forprepositionUS /fɔːr/

intended to be given to, or used by, somebody

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

foundnounUS /found/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

fromprepositionUS /frʌm/

showing where something starts, or who sent it

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

hadauxiliary verbUS /hæd/

the past form of “have”, used to form the past perfect

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

haveauxiliary verbUS /hæv/

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

hisdeterminerUS /hɪz/

belonging to a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

IpronounUS /aɪ/

the person speaking or writing, as the subject of the verb

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

IfconjunctionUS /ɪf/

on condition that; in the event that

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

improve

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

indeed

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

intention

Dictionary entry pending editorial verification. Tap Listen to hear the word.

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

intoprepositionUS /ˈɪntuː/

moving to the inside of something

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

isauxiliary verbUS /ɪz/

the form of “be” used with he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

itpronounUS /ɪt/

a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

just

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

lastnounUS /last/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

leastnounUS /least/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

library

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

made

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

makenounUS /make/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

mepronounUS /miː/

the person speaking, as the object of a verb or preposition

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

mere

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From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

morningnounUS /morning/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

mustmodal verbUS /mʌst/

used to say something is necessary, or almost certainly true

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

mydeterminerUS /maɪ/

belonging to the person speaking

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

myselfpronounUS /ˌmaɪˈself/

used when the speaker is also the object of the action

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

narrative

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

nodeterminerUS /noʊ/

not any; not one

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

notadverbUS /nɑːt/

used to make a word, phrase, or sentence negative

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

ofprepositionUS /ʌv/

belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

onepronounUS /wʌn/

used to mean any person in general, including the speaker

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

orconjunctionUS /ɔːr/

used to join alternatives or possibilities

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

out

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From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

particular

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

passednounUS /passed/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

position

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

rate

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

regret

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From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

resume

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

sentence

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From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

sentiment

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From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

seventeenth

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

shouldmodal verbUS /ʃʊd/

used to say what is right, expected, or advisable

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

soften

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

sorry

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From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

surrounded

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

tend

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From this reading The circumstances that surrounded me, did not, at any rate, tend to soften or improve my character.

ThatconjunctionUS /ðæt/

used to introduce what somebody said, thought, or felt

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

thedeterminerUS /ðə/

used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind

From this reading If I felt the least regret about it I should not carry out my intention.

there

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

toparticleUS /tuː/

used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

toldnounUS /told/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

training

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

true

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From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

trying

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From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

wasauxiliary verbUS /wɑːz/

the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading * * * * * That last sentence was mere sentiment, for I am not sorry to die.

whatpronounUS /wʌt/

used to ask for information about something

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.

whenconjunctionUS /wen/

at the time that

From this reading I had just passed my seventeenth birthday, when one morning my father called me into his library and told me the true position of his affairs.

whetherconjunctionUS /ˈweðər/

used to introduce two or more possibilities

From this reading I must resume my narrative,--for it is an analysis I am trying to make of myself, to find out if I can whether there are no excuses to be found for my particular disposition,--whether it is not after all, the education and training I have had that have made me what I am, or whether indeed I was born evil from the first.