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A rogue's tragedy
A rogue's tragedy

Chapter XXI

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Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.
But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.
When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.
But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.
He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.
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A rogue's tragedy

Chapter XXI

Reading 1/44 · 5 reading units · Lines 1–5

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Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.
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But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.
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When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.
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But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.
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He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

Learner Dictionary

Oxford-style entry order: headword, part of speech, US IPA, concise definition, contextual example, audio, and collocations from this reading.

Born noun US /born/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.”

Come noun US /come/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.”

Even noun US /even/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.”

Have auxiliary verb US /hæv/

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

Himself pronoun US /hɪmˈself/

used when the man or boy doing the action is also its object

From this reading “But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.”

Might modal verb US /maɪt/

used to say something is possible but not certain

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

One pronoun US /wʌn/

used to mean any person in general, including the speaker

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

Perhaps noun US /perhaps/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.”

Returned noun US /ˈreturned/

a story-specific word describing an important person, object, action, or idea in this passage

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

Thought noun US /thought/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

Time noun US /time/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading “But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.”

Whose determiner US /huːz/

belonging to which person

From this reading “Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.”

Would modal verb US /wʊd/

used for something imagined, polite, or habitual in the past

From this reading “But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.”

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adeterminerUS /ə/

used before a singular noun to mean one of a group, when it is not a particular one

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

acquired

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

admit

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From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

andconjunctionUS /ənd/

used to join words or parts of a sentence that go together

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

angels

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

applauding

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

apt

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

asconjunctionUS /æz/

at the same time that; because; in the way that

From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

atprepositionUS /æt/

in or near a particular place or position

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

bornnounUS /born/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

brink

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

business

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

ButconjunctionUS /bʌt/

used to introduce something that contrasts with what came before

From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

cared

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From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

Cartouche

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

chance

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

characteristic

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

comenounUS /come/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

compelled

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

confoundedly

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

consume

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

contest

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

conundrums

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

damning

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

deed

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

devils

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

difficulties

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

distance

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

end

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

evennounUS /even/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

excitement

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

forthwith

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

fromprepositionUS /frʌm/

showing where something starts, or who sent it

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

going

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

hadauxiliary verbUS /hæd/

the past form of “have”, used to form the past perfect

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

haveauxiliary verbUS /hæv/

used with a past participle to form the perfect tenses

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

hepronounUS /hiː/

a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned, as the subject

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

hesitating

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

himpronounUS /hɪm/

the male already mentioned, as the object of a verb or preposition

From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

himselfpronounUS /hɪmˈself/

used when the man or boy doing the action is also its object

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

hisdeterminerUS /hɪz/

belonging to a man, boy, or male animal already mentioned

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

inprepositionUS /ɪn/

inside something, or within a place, period, or state

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

inaugural

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

interests

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

itpronounUS /ɪt/

a thing, animal, or idea already mentioned

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

Le

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

mightmodal verbUS /maɪt/

used to say something is possible but not certain

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

miss

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

moral

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

more

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

much

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

norconjunctionUS /nɔːr/

and not; used after a negative to add a second negative

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

notadverbUS /nɑːt/

used to make a word, phrase, or sentence negative

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

ofprepositionUS /ʌv/

belonging to, or connected with, somebody or something

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

onprepositionUS /ɑːn/

touching and supported by a surface

From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

onepronounUS /wʌn/

used to mean any person in general, including the speaker

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

orconjunctionUS /ɔːr/

used to join alternatives or possibilities

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

peace

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From this reading He was not apt at moral conundrums; and one had come to consume his peace confoundedly.

perhaps

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

precipitancy

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

Prefecture

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

Prieuré

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

problem

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

profitably

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

re-encountering

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

released

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

returnednounUS /ˈreturned/

a story-specific word describing an important person, object, action, or idea in this passage

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

self-reliance

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

studied

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

thanconjunctionUS /ðæn/

used to introduce the second part of a comparison

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

thedeterminerUS /ðə/

used before a noun that is already known, already mentioned, or the only one of its kind

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

things

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

thoughtnounUS /thought/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

timenounUS /time/

an important story-specific word used in this passage

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

toparticleUS /tuː/

used before the base form of a verb to make the infinitive

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

Turin

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

victors

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From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

wasauxiliary verbUS /wɑːz/

the past form of “be” used with I, he, she, it, or a singular noun

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

wearing

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From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.

week

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From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

wereauxiliary verbUS /wɜːr/

the past form of “be” used with you, we, they, or a plural noun

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

WhenconjunctionUS /wen/

at the time that

From this reading When angels and devils were at contest in his interests, he was not going to miss the excitement, nor the chance of applauding, or perhaps damning, the victors.

whosedeterminerUS /huːz/

belonging to which person

From this reading Cartouche, released, at the end of a week, from his inaugural business in the Le Prieuré Prefecture, returned forthwith to Turin--and to the re-encountering a problem, whose difficulties, one had thought, he might have studied more profitably at a distance.

word

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From this reading But a characteristic precipitancy, in deed and word--as much acquired as born of self-reliance in him--compelled him from hesitating on the brink of things.

wouldmodal verbUS /wʊd/

used for something imagined, polite, or habitual in the past

From this reading But he had had a more wearing time of it than he would have cared to admit, even to himself.